Everything seems so important when you're ten years old

Everything seems so important when you're ten years old, you make a mess of things, it's all new and strange. 

in Les Armoires Vides (Cleaned Out) de Annie Ernaux

Perhaps there never was an equilibrium between my two worlds

Perhaps there never was an equilibrium between my two worlds. I must have taken one as the point of reference, difficult not to.

If I'd opted for the world of my parents, of the Lesur family, it would have been worse still, half of them were pickled in red wine, I'd never have wanted to do well at school, I'd have been behind the counter selling potatoes, I wouldn't have gone to college. 

Small wonder that I hated the shop, the café, the pathetic customers always after credit.

I'm trying to find excuses, was there any other way out? Out of what?

in Les Armoires Vides (Cleaned Out) de Annie Ernaux